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Radical Unknowing

Radical unknowing: the recognition that in each moment all we have to guide us is our own intuitive heart, and yet there is no way to ever know where each step will land, whether it will lead us towards our destination, or whether our destination is even where we want to go. I am reminded…
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New chant “Piano Stotram” out now

Our kirtan group, Kripa, just released a new “Mix-Tape.” In honor of Ram Dass’s birthday, we will each be releasing a new song for each day of the week. You can listen to the album here My track just dropped today: The Guru Stotram is a river of Grace, an ever-flowing current to the heart…
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Closeness in Times of Separation

On Friday, 3/13/2020, feeling confused with all of the decisions I had to make about canceling events, retreats, fundraisers, and prison Seva with Kripa, and then feeling conflicted with needing a break from the news while also feeling a social responsibility to stay updated, I did what I often do when I feel lost. I…
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SītāRām

The way “Seeeee” stretches the lips to a smile, how “Taaaaaa” drops the jaw, and the eyebrows raise in delight. We often think of ecstasy as the pinnacle of pleasure, but it’s really a fierce melt into horror and bliss. And that’s just one moment in the river of sound, “Raaaaaaaaaa;” its alluring current swallows…
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Death of a Teacher

Below is what I wrote the night I learned Ram Dass had left his body. I posted it on social media on December 23rd at 12:09 am. Writing is one of my main ways that I work through my grief, and crafting these words was incredibly healing for me. Since then, I did go to…
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Transformative Ecstasy

This is a collection of talks and chanting from an event, “Transformative Ecstasy: exploring the inner essence of the devotional mood,” that was recorded live on 9/28/19 in Arcata, CA. Hope you enjoy! (And if you do, please help spread the word!)

Wail-Moans for Love Scraps

dissolving boundaries into electrified longing

What do you want?

He asked if I could feel my heartbeat in my fingernails. “Take three more slow, deep breaths,” he said. Then he asked if I could feel it in the front of my teeth.

I lifted a slight smile as my heart pulsed in my mouth like a subtle toothache. Now I was ready for the question.

“Sitaram… What do you want?”

Recent Interview and Upcoming Retreat

Just yesterday I was on Shankara Das’s new show, “Eartheart Radio,” on KSKQ out of Southern Oregon, where we discussed the path of Love. Every week he showcases a different saint, and this week he highlighted Neem Karoli Baba. Pretty cool idea for a radio show if you ask me!

In other news, I’ll be joining my guru brothers in Kripa to co-lead a retreat in New Hampshire for the first weekend in October. More details here.

Beyond Self-Care

And this Holy Presence of Love, if we can wade in its Sacred Waters, if it can affect us unfettered from the influence of culture, it has the potential to truly transform. We are molded as servants of that Love. Self and other blur together, and care becomes a natural act. Spiritual practice is not something we do to feel better. It is not something that we buy, and it is not just another activity for a mind desperate to stay busy.

It is Radical Wholeness weaving itself into existence, the Light of Love spilling forth from full cup to full cup, and the Holy Spirit flooding into the world.