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Closeness in Times of Separation

On Friday, 3/13/2020, feeling confused with all of the decisions I had to make about canceling events, retreats, fundraisers, and prison Seva with Kripa, and then feeling conflicted with needing a break from the news while also feeling a social responsibility to stay updated, I did what I often do when I feel lost. I…
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SītāRām

The way “Seeeee” stretches the lips to a smile, how “Taaaaaa” drops the jaw, and the eyebrows raise in delight. We often think of ecstasy as the pinnacle of pleasure, but it’s really a fierce melt into horror and bliss. And that’s just one moment in the river of sound, “Raaaaaaaaaa;” its alluring current swallows…
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Death of a Teacher

Below is what I wrote the night I learned Ram Dass had left his body. I posted it on social media on December 23rd at 12:09 am. Writing is one of my main ways that I work through my grief, and crafting these words was incredibly healing for me. Since then, I did go to…
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Free Audio Download

This is a collection of talks and chanting from an event, “Transformative Ecstasy: exploring the inner essence of the devotional mood,” that was recorded live on 9/28/19 in Arcata, CA. Hope you enjoy! (And if you do, please help spread the word!)

Wail-Moans for Love Scraps

dissolving boundaries into electrified longing

What do you want?

He asked if I could feel my heartbeat in my fingernails. “Take three more slow, deep breaths,” he said. Then he asked if I could feel it in the front of my teeth.

I lifted a slight smile as my heart pulsed in my mouth like a subtle toothache. Now I was ready for the question.

“Sitaram… What do you want?”

Recent Interview and Upcoming Retreat

Just yesterday I was on Shankara Das’s new show, “Eartheart Radio,” on KSKQ out of Southern Oregon, where we discussed the path of Love. Every week he showcases a different saint, and this week he highlighted Neem Karoli Baba. Pretty cool idea for a radio show if you ask me!

In other news, I’ll be joining my guru brothers in Kripa to co-lead a retreat in New Hampshire for the first weekend in October. More details here.

Beyond Self-Care

And this Holy Presence of Love, if we can wade in its Sacred Waters, if it can affect us unfettered from the influence of culture, it has the potential to truly transform. We are molded as servants of that Love. Self and other blur together, and care becomes a natural act. Spiritual practice is not something we do to feel better. It is not something that we buy, and it is not just another activity for a mind desperate to stay busy.

It is Radical Wholeness weaving itself into existence, the Light of Love spilling forth from full cup to full cup, and the Holy Spirit flooding into the world.

Intuition- the Wisdom of the Heart

Fierce and liberating, it is this Groundlessness of Being that I am referring to, the realization that there is no external authority. I may seek guidance and counseling from wise guides and experts, look to peer-reviewed journals, follow the scientific method, or surrender to a Sacred Text or Guru, but it is still the Still, Small Voice within that leads the way.

The Nectar of the Name- A Story about Kirtan, Lila, and the Hanuman Chalisa

“People don’t know- every line of the Hanuman Chalisa is a Maha Mantra” –Neem Karoli Baba  Many of us have come to kirtan and felt inspired, felt our sorrows lifted, or even experienced a deep healing or surrender. These are beautiful experiences that are meant to be cherished, but they are also ultimately just initial…
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